I went to enrichment tonight. I taught a class on cleaning green...hee hee. I think it was funny I got asked, because I am not very green myself. Anyway, in preparation for tonight, I found myself walking the aisles in Whole Foods.
I like that store. It's cool. I kept thinking, "I could be this person. I could be more earthy, more granola...less sugar, more natural! Yes, this is the life for me!" And then I saw the price of the groceries. I was quickly brought back to reality.
And that is the space between who I could be, and who I am. I love the idea of eating everything organic and fresh, but the prices can be insane. My family would have to eat a lot more rice and beans to make room for all that healthy stuff.
I went to another class tonight. An art class for little kids. Awesome. I want to be that mother, the one who realizes that the process is so much more important than the product. But I'm not her. I want to be though, and that gives me hope.
The space between who I am and who I want to be is sometimes so vast. How will I close the gap? I don't really know, but I'm glad I was a part of enrichment tonight. It gave me a lot to think about, and even more to work on. And aren't those times the best of all? The times when we leave wanting to be better than we came?